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Crimson Tears

**Replaced Pain By Creating Another Pain**

20 September
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And it wasn't like you cared in the first place... Why suddenly strike up pity interest in what i'm doing now? It hurts, everything hurts so bad... Isnt there something more, something to help the pain pass? You stole me, you took me from myself, and I am left so heart broken...

You dont care, you never have, you never will... So please dont waste the small amount of feeling left inside me...

I often find myself having to apologise a lot... What jusifies the sorrow attempt? I mean Why do it when no one cares if your doing it anyhow... Why should i continue to feel sorrow for you and for all of this when truly I am already so damned sorry that the sympathy withered and left me like this...

Forty-Six & 2

Join in my
Join in my child
and listen ...
Digging through
My old numb shadow

My shadow's
Shedding skin
and I've been picking
scabs again.
I'm down
digging through
my old muscles
for a clue.
I've been crawling on my belly
clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused
and insecure delusions
for a piece to cross me over
or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding
in (my shadow. 2x)
Change is coming through my shadow.
My shadow's
shedding skin.
I've been picking
my scabs again.

Join in my
Join in my child,
my shadow moves,
closer to me

I've been crawling on my belly
clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic,
insecure delusions.
I wanna feel the change consume me,
feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
cleansing I've endured in,
(my shadow. 2x)
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
Listen to my muscle memory.
Contemplate what I've been clinging to.
Forty-six and two ahead of me.

I choose to live and to grow,
take and give and to move,
learn and love and to cry,
kill and die,
to be paranoid and to lie,
hate and fear,
and to do what it takes to move through.

I choose to live and to lie,
kill and give and to die,
learn and love,
and to do what it takes to step through.

See my shadow changing,
stretching up and over me
soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way by
stepping through my shadow,
coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and two
are just ahead of me.


Tool ...ooh yeah...
They Are Just Beautiful For What They Can Do... Just All They Are...
This is so beautiful

"You Lied"

Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone
Inside sleeping, my heart beating
You know that you tried to hide it
Couldn't you have said what you meant? Oh...

Time heals, time congeals around us
Endless hours of wasted moments
Understanding, not demanding
Your eyes tell what you feel inside

Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone
Inside sleeping, my heart beating
You know that you tried to hide it
Shouldn't you have said what you meant?


Damn, Maynard Is So Wonderful
Maynard is just so great

Take A Look and See All That Is Me
Take A Look and See All That Is Me

If I let you, you would make me destroy myself. But in order to survive you, I must first survive myself. I can sink no further and I cannot forgive you. There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you. I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain. I will use my mistakes against you. There's no other choice. Shameless now. Nameless now. Nothing now. No one now. But my soul must be iron cause my fear is naked. I'm naked and fearless...~Henry Rollins


Ave Satani
Sanguis bibimus
corpus edimus
tolle corpus satani
ave versus cristus
ave satani

{English translated:}

Blood we drink
Flesh we eat
Raise the body of Satan
Hail the antichrist
Hail Satan

I love this...
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