And it wasn't like you cared in the first place... Why suddenly strike up pity interest in what i'm doing now? It hurts, everything hurts so bad... Isnt there something more, something to help the pain pass? You stole me, you took me from myself, and I am left so heart broken...
You dont care, you never have, you never will... So please dont waste the small amount of feeling left inside me...
I often find myself having to apologise a lot... What jusifies the sorrow attempt? I mean Why do it when no one cares if your doing it anyhow... Why should i continue to feel sorrow for you and for all of this when truly I am already so damned sorry that the sympathy withered and left me like this...
Forty-Six & 2
Join in my Join in my child and listen ... Digging through My old numb shadow
My shadow's Shedding skin and I've been picking scabs again. I'm down digging through my old muscles for a clue. I've been crawling on my belly clearing out what could've been. I've been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions for a piece to cross me over or a word to guide me in. I wanna feel the changes coming down. I wanna know what I've been hiding in (my shadow. 2x) Change is coming through my shadow. My shadow's shedding skin. I've been picking my scabs again.
Join in my Join in my child, my shadow moves, closer to me
I've been crawling on my belly clearing out what could've been I've been wallowing in my own chaotic, insecure delusions. I wanna feel the change consume me, feel the outside turning in. I wanna feel the metamorphosis and cleansing I've endured in, (my shadow. 2x) Change is coming. Now is my time. Listen to my muscle memory. Contemplate what I've been clinging to. Forty-six and two ahead of me.
I choose to live and to grow, take and give and to move, learn and love and to cry, kill and die, to be paranoid and to lie, hate and fear, and to do what it takes to move through.
I choose to live and to lie, kill and give and to die, learn and love, and to do what it takes to step through.
See my shadow changing, stretching up and over me soften this old armor. Hoping I can clear the way by stepping through my shadow, coming out the other side. Step into the shadow. Forty six and two are just ahead of me.
They Are Just Beautiful For What They Can Do... Just All They Are...
Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone Inside sleeping, my heart beating You know that you tried to hide it Couldn't you have said what you meant? Oh...
Time heals, time congeals around us Endless hours of wasted moments Understanding, not demanding Your eyes tell what you feel inside
Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone Inside sleeping, my heart beating You know that you tried to hide it Shouldn't you have said what you meant?
Damn, Maynard Is So Wonderful
Take A Look and See All That Is Me
If I let you, you would make me destroy myself. But in order to survive you, I must first survive myself. I can sink no further and I cannot forgive you. There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you. I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain. I will use my mistakes against you. There's no other choice. Shameless now. Nameless now. Nothing now. No one now. But my soul must be iron cause my fear is naked. I'm naked and fearless...~Henry Rollins
Ave Satani Sanguis bibimus corpus edimus tolle corpus satani ave versus cristus ave satani
Blood we drink Flesh we eat Raise the body of Satan Hail the antichrist Hail Satan